Stop and Stare.

I’m so sorry for constantly trying to talk to you even tho you’re not really in the mood for having a nice conversation, it’s just we’ve hardly had a quality talk together and I’m dying for one.

I’m so sorry for making things way more complicated than it should’ve been, it’s just I haven’t got your attention for a quite time and I guess something’s distracting, isn’t it?

I’m so sorry for being so childish that I expect you to care about me more, it’s just that you used to be so worried when I didn’t tell you what was I up to if I didn’t reply your text.

I’m so sorry for sometimes being so annoying in the middle of your conversation with your friends, it’s just that I’m really not used to be ignored; it’s just not the you when it’s only the two of us. Honestly, what do your friends have effect on you?

I’m so sorry for complaining if you forget some important things about me or some stuff I’ve already told you for like thousand times, it’s just that I never forget anything you’ve told me before. Guess what’s important to me is not as important as it is to you huh?

I’m so sorry for still not being used to the ‘new you’, it’s just there are so many things changed about you and I guess I never really like those changes. I’m so sorry for lying to you when I told you I slept, well I didn’t. I cried a lot lately. It’s just there are too many things I miss from the old you.

I’m so sorry for pretending to be happy sometimes, it’s just that I don’t want you to see how broken I am right now.

I’m so sorry for considering you a liar, for breaking your promises (including not making me cry), it’s just that I hate when people promise something they can’t keep.

I’m so sorry for never being mad at you, it’s just that it’s like you have some spell on me that every time I want to, I couldn’t.

I’m so sorry for desperately wanting the old you back; it’s just that things between us not going pretty well lately with me trying to be used to with the new you.

I’m so sorry for being such a cry baby, it’s just that I can’t stop reading our old conversations and realize that even you used to make such a sweet goodnight sentence because I know you make it with all of your heart, well now you no longer do.

I’m so sorry for not letting you go when I should have, it’s just that I can’t even imagine how I would see you with another girl, and even happier.

And I even really am sorry for being who I am. Maybe you’ve had enough of me or maybe I’m just too much for you. Maybe things didn’t go right lately and maybe they even won’t. Maybe we should’ve stopped when we’re tired or maybe we should’ve taken things slower. Maybe we shouldn’t even have fallen for each other in the first place. But then again, what would I have been without you?